In that moment, I laughed
as I understood that even this irritating plastic
was being a teacher to me.
We
recently had the interior of our home painted.
The painters came in and covered everything in plastic. They used two types of plastic – a soft
clingy type which they taped up over cabinets, refrigerator, microwave, and
another thicker type for the floors. With all the texturing, repairing, masking
and painting required, the whole job took about five days to complete. And the plastic covering remained most of
that time.
By
the second day, I noticed I was restless. I tried taking refuge in the bedroom to work but
that wasn't possible; sitting on the plastic covered sofa was unpleasant because I
kept slipping down the seat. My regular
meditation spot was crowded with ladders, buckets and hard curling chunks of
quick set – all haphazardly piled on the ubiquitous plastic. A partial explanation for my discomfort was having
my routine disrupted by the workmen, but something else was making me fidgety,
and I wondered what it was.
Certainly
all my usual places – spaces of solitude – were taken from me. On a normal day,
the house is quiet, except for the regular drone of the refrigerator or the sounds
of the house settling. Of course, there
are days when the house is drowned in music so loud that the whole neighborhood
gets to listen in. But this felt like something more was going on. Then I got
it.
It
occurred to me that the swishing sound of the plastic as it blew in the breeze
coming in through the open windows, and the crinkling of it underfoot was
strangely unsettling to me. This
constant sound – like wind in the grass or, more sinister, a soft hissing - was making me anxious and alert.
But
the biggest realization was seeing the
things that normally signify our living in a space: tables, chairs, beds, counters, cupboards –
draped in plastic made me aware of life’s temporariness. Our home where we live, entertain, laugh, and cry
was being suffocated under mounds of plastic wrap. In this special space, wherein I create and
perpetuate my various identities, its and my impermanence was being spotlighted. In
that moment, I laughed as I understood that even this irritating plastic was being
a teacher to me.
As
somebody who teaches mindfulness, I had to remind myself to work with all that
was occurring in my environment without wishing for anything to be different. Being aware of the impact of environmental
factors on me, I could then recognize the condition that all human beings struggle
against change, and I was made uncomfortably
aware of life’s mutability.
We grow our wisdom when
we learn to work with every situation life presents us. This doesn’t mean we try to change how we
approach situations, but rather that we pay attention to how we habitually react
to both good and bad situations. Once our
awareness of our own reactions is honed, then we begin to gain insight into our
nature and the nature of life. All
that’s required and requested us of is to be present and aware.
May
you be present and aware today.